there’s a fine fine line between love and a waste of time (posted: Wednesday, November 7th, 2007)

There’s a fine, fine line between a lover and a friend;
There’s a fine, fine line between reality and pretend;
And you never know ’til you reach the top if it was worth the uphill climb.

There’s a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

There’s a fine, fine line between a fairy tale and a lie;
And there’s a fine, fine line between "You’re wonderful" and "Goodbye."
I guess if someone doesn’t love you back it isn’t such a crime,
But there’s a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of your time.

And I don’t have the time to waste on you anymore.
I don’t think that you even know what you’re looking for.
For my own sanity, I’ve got to close the door
And walk away…
Oh…

There’s a fine, fine line between together and not
And there’s a fine, fine line between what you wanted and what you got.
You gotta go after the things you want while you’re still in your prime…

There’s a fine, fine line between love
And a waste of time.

– kate monster’s there’s a fine fine line (from avenue q)

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i’m afraid i’ve lost you. 

i was up all night last night reading my old blog posts, and i realized how, in the entries where i really wrote something from ‘my heart,’ it was during those times when i was engulfed with negative emotions, whether it’s sadness, loss, loneliness or whatever. i think i’m having one of those moments now. so if you don’t want to read pathetic rantings, you can skip the rest of this entry. =P

it’s funny…i remember a note one of my best friends in high school gave me for my birthday just a few months ago. about how she thought going away for college would change me, and i would be a completely different person and we’d fall apart…and how she’s glad it didn’t happen. i guess it was a bit of a jinx because i feel a bit alienated from two of my best-est friends in high school. they were always closer, but they used to let me in on almost everything…now, there seems to be an awkward, unspoken gap between me and the two of them. i hope to God i’m just imagining things…but i doubt it.

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i’m afraid i’ve lost you. (yes, i retyped it on purpose. =P)

damnit. i think it was something i said a few nights back. or was it something you saw on my page? i don’t know exactly what it is, but i know something turned you cold. tangina.

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i learned something new from the movie ultranova: it’s biologically impossible for cross-eyed people to cry.