Friday, May 20, 2011

absolutely zero (posted: Thursday, August 9th, 2007)

You. You were a friend. You were a friend of mine I let you
spend the night
You see how it was my fault. Of course it was mine.
I’m too hard at work. Have you ever heard of anything so absurd ever in your
life.
I’m sorry for wasting your time.

Who am I to say this situation isn’t great? It’s my job to make the most of it
Of course I didn’t know that it would happen to me. Not that easy.
Hey what’s that you say? You’re not blaming me for anything that’s great
But I don’t break that easy. Does it fade away?
So that’s why I’m apologizing now for telling you I thought that we could make
it
I just don’t get enough to believe that we’ve both changed.

Who am I to say this situation isn’t great? It’s my time to make the most of it
How could I ever know that this would happen to me, not that easy, no
All along the fault is up for grabs why don’t you have it
Well it’s for sale go make your offer, I’ll sell it for no less than what I
bought it for
Pay no more than absolutely zero.

Well neither one of us deserves the blame because opportunities moved us away
And it’s not an easy thing to learn to play a game that’s made for two that’s
you and me
The rules remain a mystery. See it can be easy.

Who am I to say this situation isn’t great? It’s our time to make the most of
it
How could we ever know that this would happen to me, not that easy, no
All along the fault is up for grabs and there you have it
Well it’s for sale go make your offer, I’ll sell it for no less than what I
bought it for
Pay no more than absolutely zero.
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jason mraz’ absolutely zero. bittersweet. but it doesn’t accurately describe my situation. but i’m posting it anyway. i’ve always liked bittersweet.

today was not my day. i took my first ever sick leave, but only for half a day. didn’t feel alright when i woke up. but after i got some more shut eye i felt way better.

the weather’s improving, no more flooded streets. a very good thing.

i thought of him more than i did the last few days today. but i didn’t linger. he just popped in and out of my thoughts…followed by some negative emotion. anger. sadness. hurt. i don’t like being reminded about how stupid i was. how i allowed him to insult my intelligence and to play me for a fool. i don’t know if he’ll read this. though i doubt it. i wonder what he’ll think. i wonder why i care. stupid badz.

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